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Steli Efti When I was 18 all I wanted to be was successful, which at that time to me just meant rich. I pictured myself with the fancy car, expensive apartment and crushing it as a business man like Gordon Gecko in Wolf on Wall Street. But something I’ve been reflecting on lately is how glad I …
Ever wake up and think of all the things you gotta do, and it just destroys you? I can’t tell you how many times I woke up feeling miserable because of everything I’d have to tackle on that day. In my younger years, it would actually make me cancel everything and fall into a depression. …
“Nothing in this world is harder than speaking the truth”, wrote Dostoyevsky. And the longer I live, the more I realize this to be accurate. So many of life’s problems boil down to struggles with truth. It’s not just the lies we tell others: It’s mostly the lies we tell ourselves, the truths we’d rather …
How often in life are we hurrying from one task to another on any given day? Or rushing hastily to reach the next big milestone ahead of us? I’ve been pondering this recently and had the realization that when we are in a hurry to do something, it’s usually because there is an underlying fear …
I’ve experienced love in so many new ways over the past year, have deepened and widened my relationship with and understanding of love so much—I was almost tempted to call this episode “The Power of Love”, like a cheesy pop song. In this episode, I share some of these experiences, and how they moved me …
Spending a week in complete darkness would be an intense experience. That I knew. What I didn’t anticipate was how intense it would be to come out of the darkness. In fact, re-entering normal life was an even wilder adventure than the dark retreat itself, and it profoundly changed the way I view the world. …
Darkness has illuminated my inner world. With nothing to see outside of me, I began to see things clear within: fears I didn’t know I grappled with. My complicated relationship with love. Mysterious light visions. While I shared the physical aspects of my dark retreat experience in episode 144, in this episode I focus on …
I recently attended a dark retreat. I was in complete and utter darkness, alone, for an entire week. It was one of the most intense things I’ve ever done and I haven’t really shared much about it with anyone until now. In this episode, I will share the physical experiences of living in true darkness …
Recently I spent a week in complete darkness at a dark retreat. And very soon, I was faced with something I didn’t expect: Anxiety. I wasn’t even halfway through my first day of darkness, and out-of-control anxious thoughts kept appearing, and I had no idea how I’d make it through a week of darkness. Until …
I’ve been pondering a story for the last couple of days that I want to share with you. It’s a story I first heard at an ashram a few months ago about a young monk, a tiger and a barking dog. While it didn’t really move me at first, it’s been recently popping up in …
I just spent a week at a darkness retreat – all day and night for an entire week, I was alone in a room in complete darkness. It was a very intense experience – it felt like climbing Mount Everest with your mind. I knew returning to “normal” life after would be an adjustment, particularly …
An important point that I need to keep remembering is that it’s truly a miracle how adaptable we are. The capacity of a human being to heal and transform and overcome obstacles is tremendous. We are always healing, fixing and overcoming. We need to remember that no matter what difficult situations or feelings we’re experiencing, …
How much of who you are in this very moment can you fully see and accept? It’s one of the hardest questions that life asks of us every day. In this episode, I discuss the human experience of how different situations bring out feelings that are already deep within us and the courage needed to …
I’ve been spending my mornings lately reading “The Essential Rumi”. I find his writing to be so beautiful, touching, creative and poetic and I’ve really enjoyed starting my days with reading his words. One of the poems in this collection that has had a profound impact on me is “After the Meditation”. I’ve been stuck …
It’s been a very large part of my personality to define my self worth and the value I add to the world through what I’ve accomplished in a day. But I’ve learned that no matter how many to-do items I cross off my list, there’s never a sense of completion. I’m now embracing the art …
There’s a part of me that’s resurfaced recently that I haven’t had to face in months. It’s the part of me that is relentless in downplaying every single thing that I do – the inner voice that’s constantly whispering in my ear “you are not enough”. This feeling is like quicksand; the faster I try …
Since moving back to Europe, I’ve noticed how much the conversations around me involve other people that aren’t in the room. Something about this is off to me—gossip isn’t something I consume or surround myself with. I don’t like it or find any value in it. But as I started reflecting and thinking about it …
Where you do your inner work matters. Spiritual trips like retreats, yoga and meditation are vacations. The real inner work is done in the every day life – in your house, with your family and especially with those people in your life who are the most inconvenient. The ones that get under your skin and …
This concept is something we’ve discussed in previous episodes, but there’s more to this idea that I want to dig deeper into. It’s the notion that there are two sides to the same coin – that what we hate about others, we embody within ourselves. In this episode, I share a few different stories and …
“Shut the fuck up and do it anyways” used to be my mantra. I lived my life in such a disciplined, pragmatic way, which was great for producing results but I was so out of touch with my own thoughts and feelings that it was creating a negative impact in my life. I realized there …
You can’t be upset with others and at peace with yourself at the same time. Whatever negative thoughts you observe about someone else or the world around you is a direct projection and reflection of something you’re dealing with within yourself. I’ve been practicing this for years, and yet, it’s still challenging to live this …
For the last 2 to 3 months I’ve been pondering the concept of mystics and the idea of mysticism. To me, a mystic is someone that is placing the mystery of life at the center of their being. As someone who has lived so pragmatically for many years of my life, I found this concept …
I had an interesting experience recently at 4AM one morning where my hands turned into a tree. Not literally, of course, but they felt heavier, thicker, and larger than they really are. To me this was a symbolic display of how I was feeling recently with my two young sons. I had been constantly on …
I recently had such a stressful dream that when I woke up, the feelings of worry, anxiety and guilt within my dream continued to linger long after I was awake. Typically when I have these little negative thought clouds, I’m able to effortlessly puff them away and return to a sunny state of mind. But …