Crime and Punishment by Dostoyevsky

In this episode I share my thoughts after reading Dostoyevsky’s Crime And Punishment. A much more effortful, and less rewarding read than I had hoped, but I do love how deep it goes into the central theme of the story—which is what happens when we go against our own moral compass. [00:00:00] The book. Crimes …

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Meeting My Inner Endurer

I’ve yet again learned about another part of myself: It’s the part that I call The Endurer, and it’s one of the parts that my core Self hasn’t fully integrated, or even acknowledged enough. I like to highlights other parts of myself that seem more impressive and heroic. But much of inner work is seeing …

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Lying Is a Delightful Thing, for It Leads to Truth

“Lying is a delightful thing, for it leads to truth” wrote Dostoyevsky in Crime and Punishment. We discuss how you arrive at the truth through lying, and then about the twisted lies of Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina, how her insistence on denying her own truth eventually leads to her ending her own life. TRANSCRIPT [00:00:00] lying …

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The Dangers Of Overcorrecting Your Mistakes

Sometimes we don’t learn from our mistakes at all, and we keep repeating them again and again. And sometimes we overcorrect our mistakes so much, that we just replaced one distortion with another. Doing inner work requires a lot of sensitivity. You have to be aware of your own emotional reaction, but then also be …

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Less Discussions, More Decisions

Many years ago in the early days of Close, my cofounders and I would go out for dinner once a week to discuss the business. These discussions were good, but oftentimes they were just that: discussions. At some point, Anthony said: “Let’s stop talking about all these different things and make a decision. What’s one …

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The Joy of Inner Conflict in Tolstoy’s Writing

One thing I love about Tolstoy’s writing is with how much insight and empathy he’s making the characters of his novels come alive. I learn so much about myself, and humanity in general by reading Anna Karenina, a novel written more than 100 years ago—much more than I’ve gained from reading a hundred books on …

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The Beautiful Wisdom of Anna Karenina’s Derailing Marriage

I’ve been reading Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina recently, and absolutely love this book for the sharpness with which he looks at relationships, and how people communicate. There’s so much wisdom within these pages, about misunderstandings beyond repair, painful truths and the convenient lies we sometimes hope for. TRANSCRIPT[00:00:00] okay. So. I am currently reading Anna Karenina …

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Meeting My Inner Narrator

I recently had another IFS session on an elliptical, and this time it led to an unexpected encounter with my inner narrator. TRANSCRIPTI did an exercise today on the elliptical. These should be called the elliptical diaries, really the old grandma diaries or grandma workout diaries, but there’s just something, you know, because I have …

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Make Your Critical Inner Voice Part of Your Creative Practice

Whenever you pour your heart into a creative endeavor, those critical thoughts can derail you. “You can’t do this.” “This isn’t good enough.” “Who do you think you are to even try?” (And yeah—I’m holding back here. The voices in my head are much harsher.) You can try to fight these voices. That’s been my …

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My Elliptical Inner Workout

I’ve recently had an interesting experience doing an IFS (Internal Family Systems) audio workshop while working out on a threadmill. There’s something about working out physically while also doing inner work with your mind that I sparked my curiosity. Books mentioned: Greater Than the Sum of Our Parts: Discovering Your True Self Through Internal Family …

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Why Naming My Feelings Was a Gamechanger

I’ve talked about how out of touch with my emotions I was here many times. One of the things that helped me changes this tremendously was a very simple exercise: I simply started to name my emotions. In this episode, I share how I’ve benefitted from naming my feelings. TRANSCRIPT[00:00:00] Right around the time when …

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My Journey as a Liar

There’s a reason why being true and authentic matter so much to me: I know what’s on the other side. When I was young, especially during my early teenage years, I lied a lot, habitually. In this episode, which is a conversation I’ve had back in September of 2020, I share my long and winding …

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